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Clear as Night

Sometimes in life things move fast. So fast we cry to the heavens for mercy.
We beg on our hands and knees for the opportunity to breathe.
Just a few moments of peace in the midst of madness and chaos.

There are other times when things in life move slow.
Times where you're stuck working and working and working with absolutely
no compensation in sight.
"Keep your eyes on the prize," they say. "Your time is coming," they say. And well of course it is. Time always comes when it's supposed to, but never when you desire.

What you want the most lands at the bottom of your list of needs.
And it should come as a relief when the universe intervenes to keep you on track.
Instead you're heartbroken, feeling half empty, feeling the large void in your chest because
you want something the universe says you don't need.

And those are the times when things in life move neither fast nor slow.
Instead you're frozen in place, stuck where you are.
There is no image forming ahead off you.
There is nothing for you to see.

I fear this place everyday as if we were strangers who have yet to be acquainted.
But we were more than just familiar, this space in time and I...
Hating each other with intense feelings of disgust, causing nothing but permanent damage...
And yet I'm the only one to suffer.

It is in this dark place where I find my space of clarity. I have finally figured it all out,
It being that I know absolutely nothing at all.
The key to unlocking the door that let's in the light is to embrace.
Embrace the cold dark shadows in hopes of one day feeling the warmth from the sun.

When walking blind it is impossible to see where you stand, but the blinders
vanish, the glare eventually fades, and one day you will see
clearly for the first time.

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